Rough times

Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

I can't honestly write a letter to any specific band...i've had some tough ass days that's for sure but there are a lot of songs that have helped me realize a lot of things or even figure out certain issues...

 

Catching up

I really wanted to do the thing i posted a few days ago. Life has been crazier then i thought. My baby girl has Bronchitis and she has been under the weather big time...i've been so busy Christmas shopping i've barley had time to sleep!

So where we go: all the post in one to catch up!

Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

My friend Sarah that i pretty much grew up with....That's the one! We were inseprable after 5th grade. Always hung out, always had sleep overs! We always had so much fun! After we got to high school, we kind of just parted ways...different towns, different friends I suppose. When i was a senior in high school I met Chad, and she had been dating her now soon to be husband in about a week i think...time just wasn't right, and we never really spoke much. I wish that we were still close that's for sure...but I hope within time we will find our way back to eachother! She's getting married this week, i'm SO excited for her!

Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Hmm...Some friends from high school I think. There are a certain few, which I won't name any names that were in my past and just need to stay there. There are certain one's I don't want or need in my future due to their current lifestyle...I need to learn to care more about my feelings then hurting someone elses.

Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

My eyes or my smile for sure. I have always noticed someones eyes or smile the first time you meet them! First impressions are everything. Good teeth make me happy, and i loveee pretty eyes! haha! I fell in LOVE with Chad's eyes the first time I met him...(Corny i know, but it's true...they are SO blue!) and i'm lucky that my daughter takes after his eyes for sure!!

Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.

I don't ever real get compliments on my personality. Weird to say that but I mean i never compliment anyone their personality, but still haha.



A big...(fill in the blank)

Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

I know there has been plenty of ppl who have made my life hell, but i rather not fill this one out...for my own reasons!!

All because of YOU!

Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.

I would have to say my mom. She had a stroke when I was 9. The doctors told her that she was never going to walk, drive, talk or do anything on her own again. Boy oh boy did she prove them wrong. She learned to drive with her left foot, do everything including write with her left hand! She is the strongest most independent one hander i know =)

I remember when she was in the hospital and i would do or say something I shouldn't have, instead of yelling at me she would throw a pillow at me and nail me everytime. When she started to talk again, she didnt know many words but she knew ALOT of cuss words. And did I ever get cussed out haha. When she started to walk, she used a cane and she nailed me with it everytime I did something bad. Regardless of her situation she never failed on being a mother to me and my brother and she always gave me something to look up too.

 

To this day she is still amazing in my eyes. I'm sure that I will be thinking that till I die just because of how amazed I am of the willingness to learn and how eager she was to start her new life. She is AMAZING with my daughter and with her other Granddaugher as well!! She never fails to amaze me =)

Dont wanna...

Day 6: Something i hope i wont ever have to do.

I hope that I won't ever have to go through another deployment. 2 is enough. By the end of this one, we would have 27 months of deployment to Iraq under us. That's MORE then enough for me. I don't know if i could mentally and physically handle another deployment. This one has took it's toll on me and were only 5 months in.

In other news- Not much as been going on around my neck of the woods...just hanging out enjoying the holidays the best i can with my hubs being gone in all. Tonight Aubree let me rock her to sleep for the first time since she was probably about 3 months. She hated when i rocked her and the only time she would let me is if she was SUPER tired or had a belly ache. Tonight, she was overly tired because the lack of a nap during the day....so we rocked and watching "Horton hears a who" It was a cute movie, and hopefully soon I'll be able to actually watch the whole thing. It's late and I should be asleep...but I'm not...im browsing the internet for pointless items.....

Oh the life of a lonley Army Wife....

Hopes and dreams..

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life...

I want to have 2 kids! I know it seems kinda lame to have that has a hope to do in my life, but I know that Children are a BLESSING and I would be Blessed to have another baby one day. We had no problem concieving the first one, I hope it is that easy for the second one. I've heard alot of things about having Mirena, and one of the side effects was that you could have a hard time concieving afterwards. Well I had it done about a year ago, and so I hope that it hasn't jeprodized anything for the future!!!

Forgiving God.

Day 4: Someone you need to forgive.

This is going to sound maybe a little crazy, so bare with me a little.

I think that it's time to forgive God. My father passed away when I was 6, my mother had a stroke when I was 9, my Grandmother died when I was 11 or 12, and just recently my Grandfather passed away when I was 21.

Don't get me wrong, I have always believed in God and will always, I have just been angry for sometime.

I feel like all this crap happened all at one time to me and I was never given a chance...I know that God has a plan and everything happens for a reason, I just wasn't okay with the cards i was dealt...ya know?