Rough times

Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

I can't honestly write a letter to any specific band...i've had some tough ass days that's for sure but there are a lot of songs that have helped me realize a lot of things or even figure out certain issues...

 

Catching up

I really wanted to do the thing i posted a few days ago. Life has been crazier then i thought. My baby girl has Bronchitis and she has been under the weather big time...i've been so busy Christmas shopping i've barley had time to sleep!

So where we go: all the post in one to catch up!

Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

My friend Sarah that i pretty much grew up with....That's the one! We were inseprable after 5th grade. Always hung out, always had sleep overs! We always had so much fun! After we got to high school, we kind of just parted ways...different towns, different friends I suppose. When i was a senior in high school I met Chad, and she had been dating her now soon to be husband in about a week i think...time just wasn't right, and we never really spoke much. I wish that we were still close that's for sure...but I hope within time we will find our way back to eachother! She's getting married this week, i'm SO excited for her!

Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Hmm...Some friends from high school I think. There are a certain few, which I won't name any names that were in my past and just need to stay there. There are certain one's I don't want or need in my future due to their current lifestyle...I need to learn to care more about my feelings then hurting someone elses.

Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

My eyes or my smile for sure. I have always noticed someones eyes or smile the first time you meet them! First impressions are everything. Good teeth make me happy, and i loveee pretty eyes! haha! I fell in LOVE with Chad's eyes the first time I met him...(Corny i know, but it's true...they are SO blue!) and i'm lucky that my daughter takes after his eyes for sure!!

Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.

I don't ever real get compliments on my personality. Weird to say that but I mean i never compliment anyone their personality, but still haha.



A big...(fill in the blank)

Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

I know there has been plenty of ppl who have made my life hell, but i rather not fill this one out...for my own reasons!!

All because of YOU!

Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.

I would have to say my mom. She had a stroke when I was 9. The doctors told her that she was never going to walk, drive, talk or do anything on her own again. Boy oh boy did she prove them wrong. She learned to drive with her left foot, do everything including write with her left hand! She is the strongest most independent one hander i know =)

I remember when she was in the hospital and i would do or say something I shouldn't have, instead of yelling at me she would throw a pillow at me and nail me everytime. When she started to talk again, she didnt know many words but she knew ALOT of cuss words. And did I ever get cussed out haha. When she started to walk, she used a cane and she nailed me with it everytime I did something bad. Regardless of her situation she never failed on being a mother to me and my brother and she always gave me something to look up too.

 

To this day she is still amazing in my eyes. I'm sure that I will be thinking that till I die just because of how amazed I am of the willingness to learn and how eager she was to start her new life. She is AMAZING with my daughter and with her other Granddaugher as well!! She never fails to amaze me =)

Dont wanna...

Day 6: Something i hope i wont ever have to do.

I hope that I won't ever have to go through another deployment. 2 is enough. By the end of this one, we would have 27 months of deployment to Iraq under us. That's MORE then enough for me. I don't know if i could mentally and physically handle another deployment. This one has took it's toll on me and were only 5 months in.

In other news- Not much as been going on around my neck of the woods...just hanging out enjoying the holidays the best i can with my hubs being gone in all. Tonight Aubree let me rock her to sleep for the first time since she was probably about 3 months. She hated when i rocked her and the only time she would let me is if she was SUPER tired or had a belly ache. Tonight, she was overly tired because the lack of a nap during the day....so we rocked and watching "Horton hears a who" It was a cute movie, and hopefully soon I'll be able to actually watch the whole thing. It's late and I should be asleep...but I'm not...im browsing the internet for pointless items.....

Oh the life of a lonley Army Wife....

Hopes and dreams..

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life...

I want to have 2 kids! I know it seems kinda lame to have that has a hope to do in my life, but I know that Children are a BLESSING and I would be Blessed to have another baby one day. We had no problem concieving the first one, I hope it is that easy for the second one. I've heard alot of things about having Mirena, and one of the side effects was that you could have a hard time concieving afterwards. Well I had it done about a year ago, and so I hope that it hasn't jeprodized anything for the future!!!

Forgiving God.

Day 4: Someone you need to forgive.

This is going to sound maybe a little crazy, so bare with me a little.

I think that it's time to forgive God. My father passed away when I was 6, my mother had a stroke when I was 9, my Grandmother died when I was 11 or 12, and just recently my Grandfather passed away when I was 21.

Don't get me wrong, I have always believed in God and will always, I have just been angry for sometime.

I feel like all this crap happened all at one time to me and I was never given a chance...I know that God has a plan and everything happens for a reason, I just wasn't okay with the cards i was dealt...ya know?

Time to Forgive.

Day 3: Something you need to forgive yourself for

Wow...this one's tough. I guess you never really think about these things until your asked...Well here it goes.

I need to forgive myself for never being close to my family when i was younger. I never really talked to any of them until I started to date Chad and until I became pregnant. I think it's because I was so wrapped up in Chad and the Army life that I just pushed everything to the side. Little did I know that they were going to be my biggest chain of support forever.

They have been amazing to me ever since Chad and I got married, especially with him being deployed at the time. They have been there for me for everything and I always felt bad about never being there for them, or trying to reach out to someone. Maybe it's because im 22 and have a family of my own that i'm realizing these things, but it's time that i forgave myself for my past, and be happy about my future...

I love..ME!

Day 2: Something you love about yourself

I love that I am such an outgoing person! I love to meet new people, and to try new things! I used to be shy and reserved until I met my husband and had no choice but to open up, and quick!

Being so outgoing has really helped me make alot of the friends I have to this day! Being an Army Wife, there are people from across the world that become your best friends

and I wouldn't change it for the world.

Besides that- Todays adventures! SANTA!

Aubree didn't cry or freak out at all, but she was very timid and wasn't to sure what to think of him. She was cute though. I hope that we got a cute picture out of it.

I then went to a Scentsyand Thirty-One party!

I didn't buy anything yet, but i have a feeling there will be some orders in the near future!!



Day 1

Day 1- Something I hate about myself-

This one wasn't to tough to figure out. I hate that I set goals up for myself, and then I never finish them! For example- loose all the baby weight from Aubree...still hasn't happend. I thought by getting a gym membership that would help. Who was I kidding?

Don't get me wrong, I am happy with myself and where I want to be, but loosing this extra 10 pounds would be nice ;)

I think my new year's resolution is going to be to shed these extra 10 pounds, and then some by the time my hubby comes home!

30 Days

I got this idea from My Friend's Blog...

It's called 30 days of Me and it goes something like this..

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.

Day 2: Something you love about yourself.

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.

Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself. 

 

 

 

I hope that I can do this!